I’m choosing to share this with you on a weekend where I know we’ll be getting low traffic due to Blogher. Reason being I’ve always felt uncomfortable talking about losing weight since I’ve never had much luck in doing so. I started South Beach back in March and I’ve really kept up with it. I pair that with GNC’s Burn 60 which helps keep my narcoleptic ass awake all day at work which in and of itself is a miracle.
I’ve tried to exercise again like I did last year but I swear to you every time I try I either hurt myself or give myself such a horrible headache I can’t do it again. I have no idea what the problem is. And I’ll admit I sit way too much now that I have an office job. This is definitely a huge strike against me. This has never happened to me before so it’s something I’ll be addressing with my doctor at my next visit.
I’ve been working really hard at eating right and it’s been 5 months. In 5 months I have lost 22lbs. This is the bitter sweet part, I think I should have lost a lot more than 22lbs. I realize I’ve always had a hard time taking off the pounds, but this just seems really pathetic. Sure, it’s made a huge difference and I’ll admit I look and feel much better. However was it worth the stress I put myself through each time I vacationed and couldn’t enjoy any of the foods my family enjoyed? Is it worth the stress I put myself under every day eating basically like a bird?
Like I said. Weight loss can be bitter sweet. And the truth is I probably want to be slim for all the wrong reasons. I want to be slim so the hot guy can’t take his eyes off me, so that the mean girl has less ammo, so that I can get the better job offers and other things that probably mean little. What I forget is that I want to be a role model for my kids, and live longer because my cholesterol will go down and my heart strength will go up and to simply love myself more. But this is real life and I’m drama so sue me.
I’ll keep up with it. I’m not giving up because as you can see above I’ve got some goals to hit, whether they are shallow or deep and I plan to make them.
Keep up your hard work on losing that 22lbs, regardless of the reasons! Way to go!
I saw on Pinterest one I those ecards that had a woman saying she wanted to lose weight because of health … Followed by who was she kidding she just wants to look good in her jeans. I think that is most of us. For some reason health alone doesn’t motivate us like appearance. I want to be healthy, I want to run 3 miles with ease, but I also want to look good! I think because it’s easier to see that goal. When I look in the mirror I can’t tell my cholesterol or sugar, I can’t tell how fast I can run or how much I can lift. I CAN see if I look slimmer or carry a little more padding in areas. And although that is not an indication of overall health, it is something we can see making it more real. That’s why so many women se the scale, numbers are real to them. But that’s one I know that “lies” because I gained 15 pounds during my journey, and it was muscle. So take more in heart of how u are feeling, what is fitting. And exercise might start getting easier. Another nugget of truth, I turn red and sweat like a horse at the gym.
if it was easy, more people would do it. But the best part is the endorphins it releases afterwards, making me want to do it again and again. You can get to that point too! Don’t give up on a form of exercise you love. Try different ones to see which is the best for you.
I know what you’re going through and I understand how you feel. But don’t think of it as wanting to look hot for the hot guy. Think of it as wanting to look and be healthy. Looking hot is just a side effect. So is fitting into clothes I’ve been holding onto since the ’80s because I love them and now they’re in style again and I want to wear them so my husband will stop complaining that I need to clean out the closet but I’m still, like, 40 pounds too heavy for that. ::sigh::
You’re doing great! I also decided in March that I needed to lose some weight. I was tired of feeling so tired and yucky all the time. I changed the way I eat and I bought a Groupon for a ‘boot camp’ program because when left on my own at the gym, (if I go at all) it’s too easy to do too little and go home. In the same amount of time as you I have only lost 19lbs. It also feels to me like it should be more but I know I am headed in the right direction and so are you. Lift something thats 22lbs and you’ll realize how heavy that actually is. Think of the reduced stress on your joints by losing that weight. Congratulations and keep up the good work!!