I’m choosing to share this with you on a weekend where I know we’ll be getting low traffic due to Blogher. Reason being I’ve always felt uncomfortable talking about losing weight since I’ve never had much luck in doing so. I started South Beach back in March and I’ve really kept up with it. I pair that with GNC’s Burn 60 which helps keep my narcoleptic ass awake all day at work which in and of itself is a miracle.
I’ve tried to exercise again like I did last year but I swear to you every time I try I either hurt myself or give myself such a horrible headache I can’t do it again. I have no idea what the problem is. And I’ll admit I sit way too much now that I have an office job. This is definitely a huge strike against me. This has never happened to me before so it’s something I’ll be addressing with my doctor at my next visit.
I’ve been working really hard at eating right and it’s been 5 months. In 5 months I have lost 22lbs. This is the bitter sweet part, I think I should have lost a lot more than 22lbs. I realize I’ve always had a hard time taking off the pounds, but this just seems really pathetic. Sure, it’s made a huge difference and I’ll admit I look and feel much better. However was it worth the stress I put myself through each time I vacationed and couldn’t enjoy any of the foods my family enjoyed? Is it worth the stress I put myself under every day eating basically like a bird?
Like I said. Weight loss can be bitter sweet. And the truth is I probably want to be slim for all the wrong reasons. I want to be slim so the hot guy can’t take his eyes off me, so that the mean girl has less ammo, so that I can get the better job offers and other things that probably mean little. What I forget is that I want to be a role model for my kids, and live longer because my cholesterol will go down and my heart strength will go up and to simply love myself more. But this is real life and I’m drama so sue me.
I’ll keep up with it. I’m not giving up because as you can see above I’ve got some goals to hit, whether they are shallow or deep and I plan to make them.